I beg for it short like a boy,
Boy-short, please. I come out with
a pageboy: gymnast, figure skater.
Still a girl. I swallow red. I hate myself.
I didn’t know how to quit cutting my
teeth/brain on my culture, sweet carts
& cameras, cutting through me like
a parking lot, making everybody look
into infinity & carve it all down
R/B Mertz (they) is the author of Burning Butch (Unnamed Press), “How Whiteness Kills God & Sprinkles Crack on the Body” (Mistress Syndrome), “Where the Heart Is” (Another Chicago Magazine), poems in Guernica, Arc, and elsewhere, & “Trans, Trying to Get Pregnant, & More Pro-Choice Than Ever” (Autostraddle). More at rbmertz.com.